Um... yeah.

I’m afraid I’ve been pretty off about writing in the blog lately. It’s not that I haven’t been doing interesting things, or haven’t had the time to write them down, but that I haven’t had much luck figuring out how to say them. My school laid me off last month, and I’m still trying to work out what I’m going to do about it. I’ve been job hunting in Korea because I don’t feel like I’m ready to leave. But I’m also uncertain if I’m ready to commit to a whole extra year when I’ve been here eight months already.

So you can imagine the conundrum. It seems like such a commitment either way (should I stay or should I go?) even though the reality is that either decision won’t kill me. I’ve never been laid off from a job before. It’s a curious feeling, and I can’t help wondering how real adults deal with it. I’m just a single twenty-something with student loans. I’m not married, I don’t have children (I don’t even have a pet fish), or house or car payments… How do people cope with that? How does someone ignore the panic that maybe they won’t have a job soon enough to keep up with bills? My insides get fluttery at the concept and I have savings now. Aish. Times like these make me miss childhood. I don’t want to make tough decisions or stick up for myself. I want to remain in the familiar, if slightly miserable job I had before.

You’ll have to forgive the self indulgence of those two paragraphs. It’s not actually hard to find an English teaching job in Korea, and I’ve got many friends helping me out. I'm staying with someone, so I won't be dropped on the street or anything. I've got money saved up, too. So unemployment is more of a short vacation while I decide what to do next. Everybody loves a vacation, right?

Speaking of that, you take trips on vacation. I took one of those trips last week, and I have to say it was really interesting. I visited the one main landmark that every tourist in Korea should see: the DMZ. It’s still kind of difficult to wrap my head around everything there, so I’ll just stop now with the promise of telling about that soon. Very soon.